Happy again

Its funny how one thing can bring you down for a year. and likewise how one thing can bring you back up :]

EDC DALLAS. 2010.

note the date

I'm over her.

As of now, my life without her > my life with her.

Took a while, but hey

Better late than never.

dance

So one realization I've come too is how motivational deadlines are to me. The times I dance the most are when I know I have a performance coming up and even though I dance everyday (sometimes in my head while listening to the radio in the car...) I never set the necessary time aside to choreo.

Time to step up! After 4 years of ylc, Cafe y here I come.

Compassion

Working at a non profit has really changed how I see things. Though its only been a couple days since I've started, I can't believe how selfishly I've acted all my life. Parents come in all the time with their little kids. Many of them struggle to pull the money together to send their children to day care while they work during the days.. and many times, its always the nicest ones that I wish I could say, "We'll take your child for free". It really hurts me to see some of them never come back because they can't afford it.

It really puts things into perspective because even though I'm not filthy rich, I go to a GREAT school, have GREAT friends, and spend way too much money on guilty pleasures (electronics, fun liquids). And you can see me bitching and moaning all the time because "I'm NOT HAPPY".

... And yet there are people out there and all they want to do is take care of their child, but struggle... and sometimes; unfortunately, those are the nicest, most sincere people you'll meet.

five.oneseven

money. most people don't have enough, and almost everyone can't get enough.

i feel like money shouldn't make me happy, even though spending money is a little less than awesome. and its funny to see how money controls people.

my mom is going to kill me when i buy a 50 dollar oscillating tower fan for my room, but I WILL NOT wake up in a pile of sweat AGAIN... fuckin hot in Houston thats for sure. asian parents, what can you do?

lets break down my per weekly costs:

- dance workshops || 20-50

- waffles || 20 - 60

- food (eating out) || 40 - 80

- misc adventures || 20 - 100

so any given week i can spend from 100 to 290 dollars. terrible.

new goal?

come up with free hobbies.

five.onesix

Life is full of pain and struggle, yet most days I find it hard to believe it. So the next time someone asks you how your day was, I'm not going to say "good" "fine" "yeah, alright". How about, "Another day in paradise"? That might help change how others feel, and how I feel myself.